Courtesy of Jules Eguilos

Modern life says we are allowed to define ourselves. We become the masters of our own identity, narrative, and existence. Previous forms of control (society, religion, and science) have all succumbed to the power of the individual. The lived experience takes precedence. And while acknowledging the liberation this has brought to countless millions, I’ve often perceived myself differently from many of my kind in Korea.

I see myself as an immigrant. A first-generation voyager to Korea: here to try and put down roots and settle. Start a family and integrate into society. Being cognizant of my position as a guest, a foreigner, a member of the lowest rung of acceptance. But at the same time, believing in the Korean dream. The idea that if you come to this country, work hard and push yourself, you can create a better life for the next generation.

An unfair comparison

In a certain sense, though it might sound questionable to some, I see myself comparable to first generation Korean and other immigrants to the United States. There you had people with qualifications and degrees forced to run corner shops and dry cleaners. Working ungodly hours, struggling with the language, and facing all sorts of race and cultural barriers. And yet doing so in the hope that their children and subsequent grandchildren will be more integrated into the society they have moved to. Planting trees under whose shade they will never sit.

As a white person in Korea, I receive far less discrimination. I even receive positive discrimination. I am cognizant of this and do not wish to demean or disrespect those who find life here far more difficult than me. I support them and hope that their experiences will become more positive. Sometimes, I am allowed to sit in the center of tables, be the focus on conversation, be forgiven for all my social faux pas, and have my terrible jokes laughed at. In such a situation it’s easy to develop main character syndrome. To slowly and unconsciously believe that the world, like the seating arrangements, all revolves around me. A dinner meeting of all Korean people suddenly adopts English despite how uncomfortable some might be. The music suddenly becomes Western. Korean people abandon titles for a fleeting moment and become individuals.

But that is to be an outsider. In that life you are always the other: never expected to conform, forgiven all the instances of honorific exemptions. Understood when you break all forms of convention and etiquette. That is not the life I seek. I don’t want to be treated differently. Instead, I want to be treated and seen like everyone else. And this means my Korean will be heard on occasion no matter how many prepositions and articles I make a mess of or which verb tenses I butcher. I am happy to go to the bottom rank of social occasions and events. After all, the country gave me a job, keeps my kids safe on the street, provides us access to amazing healthcare, and serves up amazing food.

Work

When I occasionally share my daily schedule on Instagram, many are inspired. Others stare open-mouthed. Generally, I’m on the go from 630am to 10pm six days a week and still working on the seventh. This was the schedule that got me through a Masters degree and a PhD while also working multiple jobs. Yes, I could just sit at home and zone out on my mobile phone and geek out on Netflix dramas, but I don’t. I push myself to a ridiculous degree. The joke is that the oft-used neologism of “gatsaeng” pales in comparison to what I do. And why not?

I’ve adopted the attitude of an immigrant. I’ve started living knowing that I will never be quite accepted. That my language skills will never be perfect. And even if I were to naturalize and take up Korean citizenship, something I seriously consider, I will always be an outsider. And yet, that’s okay with me. I don’t need to be accepted. I don’t need to be seen as equal or receive all the benefits of a full citizen. But I will still try hard so that those who come after me might. Life is not just about me.

I pay full taxes but can’t vote for the president. And unlike many from other countries, the pension contributions I make don’t come back to me if I leave the country. A lot of British people complain about this. “Where is my 6 million won when I leave the country?” they ask the internet, creating petitions and online documents demanding governments recognize them and give them money. I’ve never really felt the need to do this. Korea has already given me far more than I could have ever asked for. Would more money help me clear some of my debt? Absolutely! But I chose to come to Korea and choose to keep living here. I can’t change who I am or where I am from.

A happy immigrant

In the near twenty years that I’ve been here, I’ve had to do drugs tests and aids tests to get my visa. I’ve had to provide transcripts and fingerprints. I’ve sat in Jongno for hours wondering whether the person the other side of the glass will stamp my document or not. I’ve been kicked out of nightclubs for being a foreigner and found myself unable to register for things online. I’ve typed my name all sorts of ways and yet ultimately failed to sign-up for a variety of offers given to other citizens. And as frustrating as this is, it’s fine with me. The country is slowly changing in its own ways and according to its own history and culture. I hope that it keeps moving at its own speed and in its own direction.

I love Korea. I am thankful for everything that it is. I support gay rights and am open in my alliance with people from these communities, but I don’t demand 50-million Koreans do the same as me right now if they are not ready. I don’t always change my clothes when I get home but I don’t think Korean people have to do this as well. I write a weekly column in the paper and try to observe what’s going on here and communicate it to other people, but I never tell the country what it’s doing wrong or how it should improve. There are far too many imperfections in my own life for me to be able to judge a country as rich and as complex as this and try to improve on everything that it has achieved thus far.

Some people consider themselves expats. Some consider themselves experts, here to change the country and enlighten the people as to their own ways. Some people think of themselves as foreigners. Some, no matter how long they live here, will never learn the language or ingratiate themselves to the people and culture. That’s all good. Everyone gets to define themselves. And for me? Whatever others might say, I consider myself an immigrant. A poor man in another’s country trying to start and raise a family. I don’t ask for anything. I don’t seek to change a culture. I just appreciate the opportunities. And Korea has plenty of that for which I remain grateful.

Dr. David A. Tizzard (datizzard@swu.ac.kr) has a Ph.D. in Korean Studies and lectures at Seoul Women's University and Hanyang University. He is a social-cultural commentator and musician who has lived in Korea for nearly two decades. He is also the host of the "Korea Deconstructed" podcast, which can be found online.

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Being a white immigrant in Korea

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11.05.2024

Courtesy of Jules Eguilos

Modern life says we are allowed to define ourselves. We become the masters of our own identity, narrative, and existence. Previous forms of control (society, religion, and science) have all succumbed to the power of the individual. The lived experience takes precedence. And while acknowledging the liberation this has brought to countless millions, I’ve often perceived myself differently from many of my kind in Korea.

I see myself as an immigrant. A first-generation voyager to Korea: here to try and put down roots and settle. Start a family and integrate into society. Being cognizant of my position as a guest, a foreigner, a member of the lowest rung of acceptance. But at the same time, believing in the Korean dream. The idea that if you come to this country, work hard and push yourself, you can create a better life for the next generation.

An unfair comparison

In a certain sense, though it might sound questionable to some, I see myself comparable to first generation Korean and other immigrants to the United States. There you had people with qualifications and degrees forced to run corner shops and dry cleaners. Working ungodly hours, struggling with the language, and facing all sorts of race and cultural barriers. And yet doing so in the hope that their children and subsequent grandchildren will be more integrated into the society they have moved to. Planting trees under whose shade they will never sit.

As a white person in Korea, I receive far less discrimination. I even receive positive discrimination. I am cognizant of this and do not wish to demean or disrespect those who find life here far more difficult than me. I support them and hope that their experiences will become more positive. Sometimes, I am allowed to sit in the center of........

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